New to this

I am new to all this Blogging thing but I feel I want to try it. Get out my feelings that I have built up inside me that I cant say to anyone else. I feel like a volcano thats about to erupt. I dont know if anybody will read my Blog or even want to but I dont care, this is therapy for me so I dont go crazy. I have so much to say and maybe there are some people out there that can relate to my life and maybe some you wont or some of you will get pissed off, if thats the case than leave my Blog and dont come back, but if you have a nice opinion and can relate than you are welcome. I have plenty to say just dont know where to start, first of all I am not even forty yet and I am disabled, I should start from when I was younger but I am not ready for that yet,you know how you go to a therapist and they tell you to write a journal for your thoughts well this is going to be my journal for everything that is going on in my life and that happened in my life i just will not use the correct names and if you figure out who you are than leave and dont read it because its my life. Anyway where was I, oh yes I am disabled at 39 years old and I am freaking pissed off about it, I can never go back to work and that pisses me off, I enjoyed my job in the medical field very much and it bugs the hell out of me that I can not go back or for that matter do anything. for that matter there are people out there that think they know me like for example my asshole of an exhusband and his wife and her family they think I am not really disabled and that I am faking it, or my daughters boyfriends family that thinks they know everything and they say no doctor would tell anyone that they could never go back to work again. What the hell, where do these idiots come from first of all I would never fake such a thing and second of all yes doctors do say things like that to patients all the time dumb asses. I would give anything to go back to work and not be disabled. So they all can kiss my ass. I am tired of everyone judging me, my exhusband and his wife needs to grow up and leave me alone. Well I think that is enough for today of letting loose until tomorrow